寂寞，好了...?

拼命的奢望　闷坏的胸口让我
想大声的呐喊
我努力不放
你冷淡　你让分手就这
样 我连做梦也感觉受伤
一年过了　还是一天？　计算着慌张
计程车上的音响
我们最爱的情歌
这一刻却重重击破思念的心脏
夜深了我怎么办　寂寞了谁在身旁
心情变得好复杂　想她　念
她　恨她 一个人你害怕吗
细数过满天星光 说好永远
不分开　多假 多假 多假
让记忆长出翅膀飞翔
(没有你)心放空了　寂寞好了
坚强外表下　我脆弱　情人节开始失常
别人庆祝我却很失落 秋天
过了　冬天漫长 欢愉而感伤
我们天真的勇敢 我们追求的梦
想 舍不得也只能收藏旅行的时光
寂寞感冒全都可以好的
爱多甜　伤多痛　都释放

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there are times when you just can't held it but feel like u are a spare tyre.

you are put into blames for not trying when you exclude someone or you made someone felt left out. its not cool.

but its totally cool if people put you behind their back.

you detest yourself for thinking this way but the thorn just keeps drilling further until you felt pain. 1 time, 2 times, 3 times. and you thought its going to be alright. you would slap yourself for thinking otherwise

so

you found excuses for everything to make everyone saint, in the matterof fact for you to be less pathetic. every perceive motive is a greeting. You believe in the goodness of human nature therefore you are a bitch.

i need to stop myself.

i need a change of heart

A night of glory

Well, another century just flew pass since I update.

There's something I have to 'give face' to and blog about.

Singapore 44th Birthday!!

I am sorry my dearest country but this is my third year celebrating overseas. 我也不想的。

I was again given the mission to join in SSA warzone of registration but it comes to a point you were so glad you belong to QUT when you see the queue over at UQ's side.

Nice and bad people come along you know, some people just hate to move their tiny fingy and type I am attending to rsvp. So no food don't give me black face ok, i am pretty innocent PR girl who can only tell you Sorry ah.

With some matrix visuals and noisy surroundings, the QUT committee and some helpful souls were slogging to put food la, clean up la,move table la, complain la and be crazy idiots.

We miss an hr or so of the parade but it was a whole loads of fun with a mixture of weirdos:

Examples as below:

Mr VP Julian Koh spilling out interesting facts from his mouth,

miss thailand boxer Ryo a.k.a Xiang wei making a fool out of himself being a full irritant to me, traitor from UQ - My dearest housemate Seany Lee

The malaysian who sounds like he's singing Chinese - Calyvn

Mr Dylan Su who you can hear his voice no matter how far

My sweetest honey darling Sheriiii ling

Lola lollipop who seems perfectly normal ytd but we know deep down in her heart was a ball of flames.

and our hao jie mei - GEORGINA Koh~!

sometimes its really the company that matters. :)

Well after the mayhem of washing up, we strolled back to school to catch the NDP muveeee!~

The theatre was so packed therefore the hardwrking souls cannot get their butts on comfy chairs but we did get a cosy stairway to stuff ourself in.

Wow, i didn't expect the parade to be so engaging, nice local musical styles although some dance could be more syncronise but who cares~!The night view of my Singapore was PERrrrrrfect!

I didn't expect the theatre crowd to be so sporting, singing along to the songs we grew up with and going hoo and haa on familiar conversations such as WEST VS EAST. Mr Vp turn to me and say , actually is quite proud to be Singaporean hor. Couldn't have agreed more on that day.

The significant 8.22pm came which was 10.22 to us. It was a moment of pride, the whole theatre pause the moment of gay and got serious. Brissie Singaporeans, regardless UQ or QUT looks untied for that moment. It followed by our National Anthem, I was never enthu to repeat it every normal morning of my secondary school life but I was that moment.

I told Ryo I want to go home. NOW!

sobs sobs. My singapore wait for me, don't go too fast ok, i scared I cannot catch up.

to share, i heard the little girl who was suppose to lead the pledge got into an accident 5 days ago the actual day. Now, she's still in coma. Her friends were crying when they took the pledge.

a moment of silence. Lets pray for her. with faith