寂寞，好了...?

拼命的奢望　闷坏的胸口让我
想大声的呐喊
我努力不放
你冷淡　你让分手就这
样 我连做梦也感觉受伤
一年过了　还是一天？　计算着慌张
计程车上的音响
我们最爱的情歌
这一刻却重重击破思念的心脏
夜深了我怎么办　寂寞了谁在身旁
心情变得好复杂　想她　念
她　恨她 一个人你害怕吗
细数过满天星光 说好永远
不分开　多假 多假 多假
让记忆长出翅膀飞翔
(没有你)心放空了　寂寞好了
坚强外表下　我脆弱　情人节开始失常
别人庆祝我却很失落 秋天
过了　冬天漫长 欢愉而感伤
我们天真的勇敢 我们追求的梦
想 舍不得也只能收藏旅行的时光
寂寞感冒全都可以好的
爱多甜　伤多痛　都释放

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there are times when you just can't held it but feel like u are a spare tyre.

you are put into blames for not trying when you exclude someone or you made someone felt left out. its not cool.

but its totally cool if people put you behind their back.

you detest yourself for thinking this way but the thorn just keeps drilling further until you felt pain. 1 time, 2 times, 3 times. and you thought its going to be alright. you would slap yourself for thinking otherwise

so

you found excuses for everything to make everyone saint, in the matterof fact for you to be less pathetic. every perceive motive is a greeting. You believe in the goodness of human nature therefore you are a bitch.

i need to stop myself.

i need a change of heart