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there are times when you just can't held it but feel like u are a spare tyre.

you are put into blames for not trying when you exclude someone or you made someone felt left out. its not cool.

but its totally cool if people put you behind their back.

you detest yourself for thinking this way but the thorn just keeps drilling further until you felt pain. 1 time, 2 times, 3 times. and you thought its going to be alright. you would slap yourself for thinking otherwise

so

you found excuses for everything to make everyone saint, in the matterof fact for you to be less pathetic. every perceive motive is a greeting. You believe in the goodness of human nature therefore you are a bitch.

i need to stop myself.

i need a change of heart