寂寞，好了...?

拼命的奢望　闷坏的胸口让我
想大声的呐喊
我努力不放
你冷淡　你让分手就这
样 我连做梦也感觉受伤
一年过了　还是一天？　计算着慌张
计程车上的音响
我们最爱的情歌
这一刻却重重击破思念的心脏
夜深了我怎么办　寂寞了谁在身旁
心情变得好复杂　想她　念
她　恨她 一个人你害怕吗
细数过满天星光 说好永远
不分开　多假 多假 多假
让记忆长出翅膀飞翔
(没有你)心放空了　寂寞好了
坚强外表下　我脆弱　情人节开始失常
别人庆祝我却很失落 秋天
过了　冬天漫长 欢愉而感伤
我们天真的勇敢 我们追求的梦
想 舍不得也只能收藏旅行的时光
寂寞感冒全都可以好的
爱多甜　伤多痛　都释放

.........................

there are times when you just can't held it but feel like u are a spare tyre.

you are put into blames for not trying when you exclude someone or you made someone felt left out. its not cool.

but its totally cool if people put you behind their back.

you detest yourself for thinking this way but the thorn just keeps drilling further until you felt pain. 1 time, 2 times, 3 times. and you thought its going to be alright. you would slap yourself for thinking otherwise

so

you found excuses for everything to make everyone saint, in the matterof fact for you to be less pathetic. every perceive motive is a greeting. You believe in the goodness of human nature therefore you are a bitch.

i need to stop myself.

i need a change of heart

A night of glory

Well, another century just flew pass since I update.

There's something I have to 'give face' to and blog about.

Singapore 44th Birthday!!

I am sorry my dearest country but this is my third year celebrating overseas. 我也不想的。

I was again given the mission to join in SSA warzone of registration but it comes to a point you were so glad you belong to QUT when you see the queue over at UQ's side.

Nice and bad people come along you know, some people just hate to move their tiny fingy and type I am attending to rsvp. So no food don't give me black face ok, i am pretty innocent PR girl who can only tell you Sorry ah.

With some matrix visuals and noisy surroundings, the QUT committee and some helpful souls were slogging to put food la, clean up la,move table la, complain la and be crazy idiots.

We miss an hr or so of the parade but it was a whole loads of fun with a mixture of weirdos:

Examples as below:

Mr VP Julian Koh spilling out interesting facts from his mouth,

miss thailand boxer Ryo a.k.a Xiang wei making a fool out of himself being a full irritant to me, traitor from UQ - My dearest housemate Seany Lee

The malaysian who sounds like he's singing Chinese - Calyvn

Mr Dylan Su who you can hear his voice no matter how far

My sweetest honey darling Sheriiii ling

Lola lollipop who seems perfectly normal ytd but we know deep down in her heart was a ball of flames.

and our hao jie mei - GEORGINA Koh~!

sometimes its really the company that matters. :)

Well after the mayhem of washing up, we strolled back to school to catch the NDP muveeee!~

The theatre was so packed therefore the hardwrking souls cannot get their butts on comfy chairs but we did get a cosy stairway to stuff ourself in.

Wow, i didn't expect the parade to be so engaging, nice local musical styles although some dance could be more syncronise but who cares~!The night view of my Singapore was PERrrrrrfect!

I didn't expect the theatre crowd to be so sporting, singing along to the songs we grew up with and going hoo and haa on familiar conversations such as WEST VS EAST. Mr Vp turn to me and say , actually is quite proud to be Singaporean hor. Couldn't have agreed more on that day.

The significant 8.22pm came which was 10.22 to us. It was a moment of pride, the whole theatre pause the moment of gay and got serious. Brissie Singaporeans, regardless UQ or QUT looks untied for that moment. It followed by our National Anthem, I was never enthu to repeat it every normal morning of my secondary school life but I was that moment.

I told Ryo I want to go home. NOW!

sobs sobs. My singapore wait for me, don't go too fast ok, i scared I cannot catch up.

to share, i heard the little girl who was suppose to lead the pledge got into an accident 5 days ago the actual day. Now, she's still in coma. Her friends were crying when they took the pledge.

a moment of silence. Lets pray for her. with faith

昨天情人节

本来想写今天情人节，却发现已经过了19分钟。

今天的我感觉像梁静如，

搭着地铁

大大的耳机

播着《靜茹&情歌》专辑

看着牵着手的情侣，眼神只有对方的恋人。

我好像静如在MV里每每扮演的旁观者。

爱情不容易，如果有，请你珍惜

如果没有，请你加油



詞／曲：嚴爵
編曲：嚴爵　朱敬然

如果我說 愛我沒有如果
錯過就過 你是不是會難過
若如果拿來當藉口
那是不是有一點弱

如果我說 愛我沒有如果
真的愛我就放手一搏
還想什麼還 怕什麼
快牽起我的手

有人說
世界上最遙遠的距離不是 生與死
而是 我就站在你面前 你卻不知道我 愛你
我常說
如果人類連愛一個人都被自己綁住
那世界末日已來到
不需要等到地球毀滅掉 的那天

如果我說 愛我沒有如果
錯過就過 你是不是會難過
若如果拿來當藉口
那是不是有一點弱

如果我說 愛我沒有如果
真的愛我就放手一搏
還想什麼還 怕什麼
快牽起我的手

如果 如果 沒有如果 如果 如果
最後變成路過 我也不能接受
錯過 錯過 不想錯過 錯過 錯過
我比你更難過 我不會一錯再錯
(嗯 這次不要再隨便錯過)

我常說
如果人類連愛一個人都被自己綁住
那世界末日已來到
不需要等到地球毀滅掉 的那天

別怕太快樂
別怕失去我

如果我說 愛我沒有如果
錯過就過 你是不是會難過
若如果拿來當藉口
那是不是有一點弱

如果我說 愛我沒有如果
真的愛我就放手一搏
還想什麼還 怕什麼
快牽起我的手


快牽起我的手
如果我說 愛我沒有如果
錯過就過 你是不是會難過
若如果拿來當藉口
那是不是有一點弱

如果我說 愛我沒有如果
真的愛我就放手一搏
還想什麼還 怕什麼
快牽起我的手

若如果拿來當藉口
那是不是有一點弱

沒有如果

還想什麼還 怕什麼
快牽起我的手

若如果拿來當藉口
那是不是有一點弱

如果我說 愛我沒有如果
真的愛我就放手一搏
還想什麼還 怕什麼
快牽起我的手

如果我說 愛我沒有如果

MSN

count the times when you typed

LOL

and you are really laughing so loud till the whole neighbourhood get a 'taste' of it.

or are you just frowning away and doing something more impt.

I reckon the winner as option two.

welcome to the world of reality in MSN, the culprit for misunderstandings

where faking is no risk , guessing is a must, headache is the side effect.

周崇庆

他说他身高不高，长的也没有比别人帅

可他却是我一连串的访问下来，一言一语会回荡在脑海的人。

他叫周崇庆。

他很诚实，不做作也不吝啬的分享着自己精彩的人生和独特的际遇。

顿时我分外的投入，越缩越小

访问被他的故事牵引着，而不是我这个该问问题的傻妹。

他符合了我崇拜的三大因素“got experience, got substance, got attitude"

残忍的现实从他口中，变得悦耳许多。

早就知道自己有几平墨水，有几量重（我不是说体重HOR。），

努力的空间认真多的可以征服地球，现在范围又扩大到宇宙了。

不管在处事，知识或常识。

参观着933的播音室，我对一切都很好奇。他很主动的叫我问问题。

我惭愧，因为学习者是我，主动人却是他。

旁观着现场的实况，我只能用“快，狠，准”

对了

还有四个字

“太。好。笑。了！”

感激。感谢。这个能 take-away 的经验。

回家我一直想要怎么为他的访问做预告。我希望认识的人更认识他。不认识的去认识他。

因为两者听完都不会有后悔。

我是说真的。

单和双

单

是皱着眉头的独立人

一个口，被迫和自己对话

说的只是一个人的故事

身旁的宽阔，冲塞了过分的自由

好人说它独立，坏人说它孤独

它不是复杂，只是一个字却笔画太多，太沉重

竖起它的十字架，它虔诚，它祈祷，它蜕变

它化身成‘又’，找寻它失散的另一个‘又’

紧紧的拉着，依靠，再也不离开。

*bun
some random thots

新年快乐

阿信说：

“聽著窗外不停止的遙遠鞭炮聲，麻將聲，來往的車聲，
幸福如果有聲音，聽起來就像這樣吧？
農曆年，是強迫每個人都要快樂的日子”

真的。。我点同。

身边的大人都说不爱新年，这样不会快乐吧。

过了七七八八的新年，大家还好吗？

幸福持续，温暖要加温

我的梦

现实是残酷的，如果大家都拥有自己喜欢的职业

那还会有人倒垃圾吗

大家都在为了生存而奋斗，生活好像渐渐被活埋

有时看到别人的坚持，我很羡慕。

这个时代，坚持是一种动力，也是完成不可能任务的借口。

我的缺点,我万分了解。

我害怕我的坚持被别人看成愚蠢，所以我容易放弃，更容易沉默

我不坚持，所以慢慢蜕变成惰性。

我常认为一个人的人生是活在一连串的恶性循环。

就像你接二连三的被10个男人抛弃，我以前会认为那是命。

现在我认为那是一种没有自我反省的状况。

现在我想改变。会不会来不及？

我的梦因该不愚蠢，一步一脚印，开始积极，开始付出

平凡不是不好，但在它之前挑战自己的可能。

专注 + 努力 + 人气

Henderson Walk

Have been complaining to sandee lately about making a shift of our outings to something else apart from ktv, shopping and eating.

Is Singapore that boring...? !!!!
alrights, i heard the large assembly of YESSSSS!

So for the start of my revolution, i step upon the Henderson walk with the bun family.

With 3 aunties and 2 uncles on board.

Auntie Mrs Gan, my dearest sister refuse to abandon her umbrella on this exceptionally sunny day in comparison with the recent breezy early evenings and seems like she have climbed 10 km of trails even before attempting this stroll,inheriting apparently from her mother .



The walk is a 'sporting' event, i am pretty sure you could tell.





Eh hello. Excuse me. You all think this is the Great Wall of China ah.
Human is just so destructive in the means to prove their 'great' existence.


As the weather gets alot cooler, the beauty of singapore surfaced as we reached the Henderson wave, a.k.a i call it BRIDGE.

The new additions of auntie and uncle gan

And the walk holds great invention! and we must say it compliments our un glamness...

I had this unusual urge of jogging all the way down the walk at the end of the day , I have to say this place contains magical powers which allows me fulfil the urge.

GOOD JOB , the architects and designers of the new hang out!

Do give this place a chance although it ended my trip with a flustered

face , sweaty clothes and mayb a lighter body?! ...oh welll.......

五月天

有一些人事物原来可以喜欢很久，很久。人生海海，志明与春娇。。。

等等的等等。原来过了这么久我还是会唱
一月四日2009年，我出席了五月天，[真正的快乐]新歌飙唱会。
户外，凉风。很特别

但更特别的事，我带上了MEDIAPASS
从来没想过。。这么快有机会。。虽然经过一些小插曲。

沉闷的澳洲生活在2008年有了些许的变化。我既然当了DJ。机会在你最不留意的当儿，悄悄爬进。虽然我还是极度讨厌我的重鼻音和发音 。。。
而机会也在我回国度假时，依然紧跟着不放。谢谢。原来老天可能爱我。

谢谢.有MOMO的姐姐相助。

"Next to you, I feel like a kid. A learning apprentice. "

这场演唱会我挡在所有歌迷前面，2metres的距离。 五月天暖暖从我面前升起。 我是MEDIA哦，我拼命的告诉 自己。 但始终I AM STILL A LITTLE FAN。

我留意到打鼓的不是冠右。阿信说冠右的岳父过世了。冠右之前还有一边打鼓，一边流泪的迹象。就算他们不是 MAYDAY,画面依旧辛酸。人生啊。。

但演唱会依旧没有让我失望。没亲身体验，你不会了解。他们很投入，他们真的爱音乐。五月天是属于台上的。

我很GENG，媒体区没人站。我不做EXTRA。我只能用力合唱写着资料。

坐着的双腿按耐的很辛苦。憋死了。终于933的 佩芬站了。拉着MOMO的姐姐。我毫不犹豫的也跟上。这才是对的。阿信离我好近，好爽。

他们的HIGH，有着很严重的传染力。带着不做作的互动，让台上台下玩成一团。

阿信说台北倒数的时候很多人看，他走音了~~他因该很懊恼。

他说今天唱不好，他不想再上台了。
可爱，认真
别说我偏袒，我觉得那是他的真心话。而那天的表演足以掩盖一切

“想念如果會有聲音 不願那是悲傷的哭泣
事到如今 終於讓自己屬於我自己 只剩眼淚 還騙不過自己”
突然好想你

“這 世界 笑了 於是妳合群的一起笑了當生存是規則 不是 你的選擇”
你不是真正的快樂

“期待著彩虹 所以開了窗 窗外只有灼熱閃光
所謂的彩虹 不過就是光
只要心還透明 就能折射希望”
我心中尚未崩壞的地方

这是阿信的词，五月天的想法
不要在没有看过歌词，就说五月天的歌不好听。
我喜欢阿信，因为他写的宛如看透每个人类，植入心里，而试图把好的坏的都唤醒然后反省。
他把普通人的事，美美的写成了诗。

想不通时，听听MAYDAY~~我是说真的

五月天一百分！

后续

一月五日。我联防到了五月天。面对面。靠近的我快神经错乱。但是我是来访问的!题目，资料都准备了。欠缺的是-胆和一把洪亮的DJ嗓音。 不过还好，我有问道！三题！请别鄙视我。

虽然很不满意自己的表现，但他们是包涵了我的血，汗和颤抖才完成的。But I still seriously needa BUCK UP.....woooooo